because complaining makes me feel better, so just hang on there for a minute, alright?
as im sitting here in my house on a saturday night watching tv alone because for some unknown reason im not allowed to go out, i figured i would make myself feel better about my life by writing about it.
so here goes nothing:
i miss having freedom.
i miss being treated like im 18, and not like im 10.
i miss being allowed to do what i wanted to do, when i wanted to do it.
i miss not having to worry about making sure i get home before curfew (usully about 7pm).
i miss being able to hang out with friends.
i miss being allowed to do anything really.
the thing about the culture here is that in order to be allowed to do anything you have to ask permission from your parents first. you have to tell them exactly where your going, exactly what youll be doing, exactly who youll be with, exactly how your getting there, exactly when youll be home. and if youre me, curfew is typically about 7pm.. yes, P. M.
and even then, after telling everything, at times (like now) im stilll not allowed to go out.
coming from a culture where i can tell my dad im leaving and that ill be back tomorrow, and he tells me have fun and he loves me, and i drive away, to that ^^, its just a little hard to adjust to.
im 18, id loove to be treated like it.
and here you go, a nice little example of the lack of freedom i have, i was allowed to go a friends house yesterday until the crazy late hour of 10pm (which was actually originally supposed to be 7pm) and because of that, i ‘dont need to go out tonight too.’
soo here i am, saturday night, doing nothing.
and believe it not, and i know, its hard to believe, but i actually didnt come to south america for a year to sit alone in a house and watch tv or write a blog post. crazy i know, but that really wasnt my reasoning for coming here.
i did however come the whole way to south america to go out, to make friends, to learn the culture, the language, the way of life. and while sitting here watching keeping up with the kardashians in english may not be terrible, its not exactly what i signed up and payed a shit ton of money to do.
i think that if i am mature enough and independent enough that can get up and move alone halfway across the world to a country where i know no one and dont even know the language, that i should be trusted to go out on a saturday night.
hey, just my opinion.
so yeah, thats it. im done complaining, since it seems thats all i do on here anymore.
time for a movie and some sleep. yaaay south america. what a party..